So after 3 months of being off from work. I went back. It's not as simple as that you see. The past two years I have been sick with Celiac disease and didn't know it. So I have missed lots of work in the last two years. Maxed out my FMLA both years and had to even go on extended disability for this last time out. So when it comes to work there is lots of anxiety. Am I finally back for good??? Am I going to get sick or need some other surgery in the near future? Am I going to eat something and have an attack at work? On top of all that. There is the stress of my boss and co-workers. They have been supportive but I know they are tired of Kymberly and her illnesses. I can't say I blame them I have felt the same way about myself many of times. It's only natural to resent someone who is out sick all the time and you have to pick up the slack. So at this point lets just say they don't trust me yet. Trust to know that I will be present.

That is a FISH philosophy. FISH philosophy is a corporate concept that we subscribe to. It basically evolved from the Seattle Market Fish Throwers. There are 4 basic principles. 1. Be present 2. Have fun/play 3. Make their day 4. Choose a great attitude. If you apply these principle's to your work, attitude and co-workers then everything is better. It's a good/fun philosophy to have but lately I have been falling short. I haven't been present and I definitely haven't made their day.

So today I marched off to battle. It feels like a battle. A battle with my body and sometimes my spirit. For the most part everyone was nice and welcomed me back for the umpteenth time.